Monday, October 11, 2010
Dealing with 'rejection'
I guess the more I put myself out there the more chance I have of being turned down in one way or another, and I guess this latest experience I just had isn't exactly negative feed back but it has still made me feel a bit down and has me questioning whether I should worry about making my art more than just a hobby? A couple of weeks ago I applied for a spot in this local shop in town which just opened this year. It is for hand made products by local artists and designers and sells all sorts of things. So I sent in my on line application and hoped for the best. I got a brief email response this afternoon which basically said that my jewellery is similar to some one who is currently in their shop already. I did go in the other day and there is someone doing jewellery with Japanese paper.
I do understand that for it to be fair for the person already renting a space that they don't want too many people with similar products but the response also basically wished me luck in the future and nothing else, there was no 'try applying again in the future' or 'perhaps when this current artist has finished their contract perhaps I could re-apply', I also said that I paint and showed them my blog with all my art on but there was no mention of possibly putting my paintings in the shop. So I guess from all of that I can only think that they just don't think my work is good enough :0(......... I kinda feel a bit brushed off I suppose.
I know that if I want to push myself that I need to get a thicker skin and really this is only one negative experience so far and I do have a lot of support from my friends and family and all you online friends that I have made through blogging but I can't help questioning where I'm going with this aristic path I'm on, and whether I'm really good enough?
I think I'm just in a bit of a funk as it took alot of guts for me to apply for that shop in the first place and when it comes down to it I really do enjoy being creative, perhaps I should just stop putting pressure on myself?